Deepa! Mujhe bataogi tum kuon ro rahi ho..kya ho gaya hai tumhe!! kuon ro rahi ho..Amit mujhe akela chod doge plzzz.. Nahi pehle bato kya hua...
Deepa - Mat koshish karo amit tum nahi samaj paoge.. Aaj tak koshish bhi ki hai samjne ki jo aaj samajna chahte ho..
Amit -Deepa plz... mera patience ka test mat lo..mujhe batoge..!!
Deepa - Amit tumhe pata hai akelapan kya hota hai... apno ke hote hue bhi akela hona kaisa lagta hai
Amit - Akelapan!!! ab yeah kahan se beech mein aaya..
Deepa - tabhi to main keh rahi hun..mat samjne ki koshish karo! nahi samaj paoge..
Amit ne deepa ki taraf dekha..aur hamesha ki tarah..usse uske vicharo mein chod ke kamere sebahar chala gaya.. chod gaya deepa ko phir se apni uljano mein akela...Deepa na chah kar bhi akeli reh gayi..
deepa aur amit ek hi college mein padte the..deepa dikhne mein behle hi sadharan thi..lekin umango se bahri thi..ek josh sa tha..ekdum bacchi si..jiske mann mein kisi ke liye koi mail nahi.. jab uska naam pehli baar amit ke sath juda to woh hairaan reh gayi.. usko to jaise chand hi mil gaya tha..Amit na kewal dekhne mein smart tha balki batchit mein bhi chatur tha.. Amit ke jeevan mein aate hi jaise deepa ko sab kuch mil gaya tha.. bahut khush thi.. college khatam hone ke baad amit mba karne chalagaya.. deepa job mein busy ho gayi.. itni lambi judai bhi deepa ko amit se dur nahi kar payi thi..mohabatt ne pukara to deepa sab kuch chod chad kar amit ke sath rehne blore aa gayi.. Amit ke pass rehne kiicha ne usse sab niyamo ko todne pe majboor kar diya..usne apne dost..apne janene walo ki parvah na karte hue bhi bina shadhi ke amit ke sath rehna suru kar diya.. Suru suru mein to sab sapno sa lag raha tha.. usne apni duniya sirf amit ke aas pass hi bana li..ab uske liye career..job kuch mayne nahi raktha tha..bus uska ghar.. sab acha chal raha tha..Usne amit ke har sukh dukh mein sath diya tha... uske sabse muskil samay mein uska sath diya..Ab amit ki job lag chuki thi..woh financially independent ho gaya tha.. office mein mehnat ke karan jaldi recognition bhi mil gayi.. aur dusri ladkiyo ka sath bhi.. apni job ki excitement mein woh deepa ko kab bhulta chala gaya usse bhi nahi pata.. woh deepa jiske nakhre kabhi usse adaye lagti thi ab un pe ghussa aane laga tha..deepa ka bachpana usse irritate karta tha..uski life ki priorities change ho rahi thi..deepa ka apni raye dena jo pehle healthy argument lagta tha..ab woh baat katna lagta tha..
Aaj deepa khud hi soch ke hairan thi ki usne apne aap ko kahan kho diya.. uske jitne bhi shok the ab amit ko paise ki barbadi lagte the..pehle woh thodi salary..bade phone bil ke baad bhi apne shok pure kar leti thi..aaj itni sal hone ke baad bhi taras kar reh jati hai..kuch kharidne se pehle sochna padta hai..ki aage kuch aur bade kharche hai jinke liye paisa bachana padega..life ki priorities change ho rahi hai jinhe samajne mein deepa asamarth hai aur amit..uske pass kahan hai uski baatein uske sapne share karne ka time...uske maa baap..to aaj sath hote hue bhi sath nahi hai..unhone samaj ki izzat aur beti ke sukh ke liye rista maan to liya tha..lekin kahin na kahin ek duri aa gayi thi.. ab unhe deepa ek independent..working woman lagti thi jo apne faisle le sakti thi..ab deepa un se bhi to nahi keh sakti thi.. kaise kehti ki amit kuch badlne se lag gaya hai.woh jo pehle uske peeche bhavron ki tarah tha.. aaj kal uska thoda sa dhyan pane ke liye deepa kya kya nahi karti..ek ghutan si hone lagi thi usse..uske soch ne gabrahat ka roop le liya tha.. ghabrayi hui deepa aur kya karti..kuch neend ki goliya li aur so gayii..apne ko ek naye jang ke liye taiyar karti hu..apne ko dhundti hui.. sapno mein apne ateet ko dekti hui..so gayi.. aur apne behtar kal ki umeed karti hui..apne bache hue self respect ko ikhat karti hui..
Thursday, July 27, 2006
Friday, July 14, 2006
I took this sub-headings from ekta's blog..Y ? becoz i wanted to think about myself..
I am thinking about .. My priorities in life
I want strength... To full fill my ambitions
I wish.. Ive patience and courage to achieve my dreams
I miss .. Last days of my college life
I hear .. some melodiuos song
I wonder .. How much priorities changes as ur life moves from one phase to other
I am .. little stubborn..little submissive.. little caring..little creative
I dance .. when im happy
I sing.. according to my mood
I cry.. when i feel too heavy to carry emotions in my heart
I make with my hands... my sketches.. my painting.. my life
I write .. wht i feel
I confuse .. my "wud be" with my ambiguous demands and ever changing personality
I need.. some time for myself.. and some time with my hubby for planning my things
I should .. be able to control my anger
I start .. dreaming about my new life..new dreams
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
I was finally able to publish my sketches. Thanks to digi cam.. earlier i had to wait for getting each scanned..but now just a click away.. thou it is not much clarity..but still im okie.. U can also visit it either using below given address or just clicking MY sketches likn on right..
All comments are welcomed.. they will help me in improving..:)
Thursday, July 06, 2006
Sunaina- Gal with a beautiful eyes.. glowing face but dark complexion.. Tarun - Boy with dimple smile..mischievious eyes - Fair kashmiri pandit.. This is a story about two people studying in same institution.. There classmates always linked there names not becoz they liked each other or for any other chemistry but simply becoz they had opposite complexions (sigh…). On other side Sunaina and Tarun had never talked to each other.. not until last day of their collage .. and tht too becoz they came to station to see off there best friends... For three years people have taken there name together thou for teasing only... but continuous call of same name had a gravity and this lead in zeal of knowing each other’s feelings for Sunaina and Tarun... they decided to write wht they actually felt about each other in these three years.. For them, it was first and last time they talked.... But as usual in very filmy way.. they had sth else in there fate.. there search for job landed them in same place.. there necessecity and struggle bring them back in contact.. so the two people who never talked in 3 years became best buddy in 3 months.. they started talking to each other for hours ..sharing there thoughts…they had lot of similarities…a common career goal.. both preparing for GRE.. passion for music and careful nature for each other…they started sharing everything.. starting from there professional life to personal problem.. But can a guy n gal be only friends (specially when neither of them is engaged) ..Sunaina started falling for Tarun.. Tarun also developed a soft corner for Sunaina... is this LUV???.. Love to me is frndship.. i will always like tht my luver should be my best friend also.. does that mean that Sunaina and Tarun are made for each other (which honestly they started feeling in their heart)…
It is real life not a three hour movie.. they had various odds in there relationship..
Tarun a pure veggie kashmiri pandit Sunaina a bengali non-vegie gal..No food not problem at all... as Sunaina had left non veg.. :)
Tarun was a social person.. for him society came first then his own feeling.. and
He can not become laughter symbol for fair n dark pair.. not all are tht bold to outcast the society…i dnt know why people are so bothered if a gal is dark…why not people question if a boy is dark and gal is fair..why it is so difficult to accept???
Secondly.. Tarun’s parents wil not allow out of caste marriage.. in today's world does caste system matters..??
Third.. Tarun’s EGO… Sunaina got into GRE.. but he could not….
So, does that mean Tarun and Sunaina will part or marry…a billion dollar decision for them and after a long discussion which happened for months they decided…?????
As I mentioned this is a real life… wht happened was sad… Tarun n Sunaina decided to Part…. Leaving tht gal brokern..even when it was not her fault…. Tarun also disturbed.. but life goes on.. This is the dilemma of life.. U can not always follow your heart……:(
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
As Sandeep..again gave a turn to a story.. i cud not stop myself from writting further..
Sandeep's part of story
Sunaina left India in order to pursue MS in USA. Since she had a good academic record and high GRE score, she managed to get admission in Carnegie Mellon Universities. Joy of getting admission in a great university and dedication towards her studies soon made her to forget her unforgettable past. After six months came another guy in her life. His name was Williams, and he belonged to Afro-American community. Soon they fall in love and got married after Sunaina graduated from CMU. And then they lived hapily afterwords............ until 6 years later, Sunaina again meets Tarun.
Tarun, after the break-up, found solace in studies, he studied hard. After one year he managed to clear CAT and got admission in IIM-A. Even there since he had no other desire left, gave everything to studies, worked hard, and finally got recruited in the best financial company in USA. They offered him astonishing package of 3 thousand dollars per year. Tarun became rich over-night, still he never was really happy. His happiness always was with Sunaina. Years after years passed... He did extremely well at job, but still was never really happy. Somehow he began to forget Sunaina and seemed to be returnig back to normal life until .. that day .... when he again met Sunaina..........
Tarun was in supermarket.. when he saw a familiar face..She was Sunaina!!...
Its been more than 9 years…since they spoke.. In these 9 years, his parents were continuously forcing him to get married.. but he use to see Sunaina’s face in every face.. but just last month he finally drop his arms..n get ready to marry a gal whom his parents had chosen.. he had not even seen the gal.. there was no need for it..his eyes had made him take wrong decision once..n he didn’t want to repeat it.. But there she was.. Sunaina… His first luv..
He quickly started walking toward her when suddenly he saw her husband n kid rounding her.. He stopped with surprise.. turn back n tried to move out fast… when he heard the same voice which was still echoing in his ear.. He turned back..
Sunaina was shocked to see Tarun..he was looking much older then his age.. at same time Tarun could see Sunaina was really happy with William.. And it gave rise to feeling of jealousy.. he was feeling uncomfortable to see her happy without him.. In his case it was just caste n color..but here it was totally different country..culture and creed.. But still they were happy…. So his belief tht ‘his decision was to abandon sunaina was correct’.. belief, which helped him to survive for 9 years Broke!!!.. He was feeling very small.. he wanna run away..
Sunaina cud understand his dilemma.. She wanted to help him.. But was there anyway she cud help him out..?... She know he was egoist..she dont want to break his remaining ego.. She saw him going back....
It was the last time she saw him..few days after she tried to inquire bout him.. only thing she came to know was He had left the job..and changed the place..